Governor's Honors Program
I am currently at nerd camp in Valdosta
Apparently it is an experience that will change my life
But so much of my life has changed recently I am not quite sure what else this place could do
There is so much going on right now it's hard to breathe when I let it hit me
So I dive in to classes instead
Never have I been surrounded by 77 other intelligent well thought out people as interested in Social Studies as me and as willing to discuss their views as I am
And my minor is really interesting
Movies and Mores: The impact of movies on society and vice versa through the depiction of racism, sexuality, women, gender roles, and other ticket items in film
I am becoming a person of my own
Being forced to branch out and meet new people and assert my ideals
And though it is terrifying, staying who I have become is even more frightening
So I will embrace my oppurtunity
I will swallow up everything these 6 weeks have to offer
And regardless of what greets me when I return, I will face it head on with a sense of confidence
I have met the point in my life where I need to grow up
Regardless of the mixed messages the various members of my fluctuating family may send me, it is time to step up to the plate
It is not my intention to change who I am, or lose my personality
On the contrary it is to enhance that to a point where I can not only convince others, but myself, that I am worthwhile
I have a lot to learn and I think this Summer was like a gift for me to gain it
So if I return and I seem different, it is my intention
It is not my intentin to destroy any of the relationships I have, meerly to strengthen the one with myself and an overarching society
Being here has helped me realize that I am not the only person like me, but embracing my quirks is what I need to do to stand out in a crowd of 689 other high grade, honors classes, debate, mock trial, beta, student goverment related individuals
Interestingly enough, it is also being here for the past few days that has helped me realize exactly how much I value being a part of a theatre community
I am uniquely a techie, a stage manager, a stage crew head, and a Mongo worshipper
I am one of the only people here who could tell you, not only the difference between a Leko and a Frenell, but also how to hang and focus them complete with gel and gobo
I love my community and I love who I am inside of it
And I also love teh fact that I can be that person here and have that be the thing that sets me apart
This Summer should be interesting
And while it could turn out that I am incapable of reexamining who I am, the fact remains that I will try
I am making a concious effort to question everything
Because we can only gain answers when we ask questions
So here I go
Trying to be me, as best as I can be